This year's Christmas sponsered by Lilly, makers of Cymbalta.
November 2nd 2006 04:01
So, Halloween is officially over, and you all know what that means? Out comes the Christmas stuff full force in the stores. Some of it has been out for a while, but duh da duh duuummm!! (that was the sound of angel blowing its toot horn) it's officially here. Here to wipe away the ghouls and ghosties from our minds, white washing our holiday spirit with snow, and candy canes, Santa and the reindeer. Oh come ye Merry Gentlemen and be ye confused on whether this year it will be ok to say Merry Christmas, or if you should still stick with Happy Holidays. I'm of the Happy Holidays Camp, but then again I am borderline heathen by marriage.
Usually this time of year, for lack of a better phrase, sucks a big fat donkey dong for me. This is the time of year where I usually feel really down. I'm always stressed about money, and what I'm not getting my children. I always feel like a failure around Christmas. Those of you who have followed me for awhile may remember a lot of "bah humbugs" and "Fuck this Jolly Santa shit" this time last year. I think last year I did a rant about the rip off at the Santa pictures place in the mall. Fuckers. Ooooh don't get me started.
Although I do think that Christmas HAS turned into something totally commercialized and disgusting, I think I may have a better attitude about the whole thing. I am actually having a good time buying the kids presents. (Well, Aislinn's presents. I still haven't gotten Jonny anything) When I went to Michaels this evening, I peeked at the Christmas stuff, and my word if my heart didn't do a little pitter patter of joy. I felt like the Grinch, my heart growing three times it's size.
So, this year, yes! I am looking forward to Christmas. Once again, I have to thank my wonderful drugs for making life so much sweeter. For allowing me to LIVE, because I wasn't before. I was barely making it, and not even realizing it. Knowing I missed so much is sad, but I am trying not to dwell on that too much. I can only look forward from now on.
Usually this time of year, for lack of a better phrase, sucks a big fat donkey dong for me. This is the time of year where I usually feel really down. I'm always stressed about money, and what I'm not getting my children. I always feel like a failure around Christmas. Those of you who have followed me for awhile may remember a lot of "bah humbugs" and "Fuck this Jolly Santa shit" this time last year. I think last year I did a rant about the rip off at the Santa pictures place in the mall. Fuckers. Ooooh don't get me started.
Although I do think that Christmas HAS turned into something totally commercialized and disgusting, I think I may have a better attitude about the whole thing. I am actually having a good time buying the kids presents. (Well, Aislinn's presents. I still haven't gotten Jonny anything) When I went to Michaels this evening, I peeked at the Christmas stuff, and my word if my heart didn't do a little pitter patter of joy. I felt like the Grinch, my heart growing three times it's size.
So, this year, yes! I am looking forward to Christmas. Once again, I have to thank my wonderful drugs for making life so much sweeter. For allowing me to LIVE, because I wasn't before. I was barely making it, and not even realizing it. Knowing I missed so much is sad, but I am trying not to dwell on that too much. I can only look forward from now on.
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