Life sucks.
April 2nd 2007 21:40
I feel tired, dejected, sad, morose, lonely, and unloved. My eyes feel heavy from teh burden of just staying open, and my muscles feel noodly and unable to do the simplest tasks. I feel heavy. I feel down. I feel all those meaningless words people use to describe how it feels when life just kind of sucks a big fat one.
The thing is, life does suck a big fat one, and there isn't a God damned fuck it all thing I can do about it. If I tell Tony, he justs thinks I am attacking him, which makes it ABOUT him, and sometimes, fuck it all I need it to be about ME for a change.
I have been stuck at home for two weeks with a vomitting kid, and a hellion of a son who thinks life is throwing shit in the fish tanks. I have a husband who does love me, but right now his love isn't enough. Love isn't going to pay the bills, and love does automatically make a person rememeber to take the trash to the curb, and love doesn't stop someone from being a total selfish prick. Love doesn't get the dishes washed, or the groceries shopped or anything of the sort. Love just makes it that much harder to hate a person for being a shithead.
The thing is, life does suck a big fat one, and there isn't a God damned fuck it all thing I can do about it. If I tell Tony, he justs thinks I am attacking him, which makes it ABOUT him, and sometimes, fuck it all I need it to be about ME for a change.
I have been stuck at home for two weeks with a vomitting kid, and a hellion of a son who thinks life is throwing shit in the fish tanks. I have a husband who does love me, but right now his love isn't enough. Love isn't going to pay the bills, and love does automatically make a person rememeber to take the trash to the curb, and love doesn't stop someone from being a total selfish prick. Love doesn't get the dishes washed, or the groceries shopped or anything of the sort. Love just makes it that much harder to hate a person for being a shithead.
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Comment by DuskDevi
Rugby World Cup 2007
Hoping that tomorrow all will be good again....no vomiting child, no throwing son, no bills to pay, no dishes to wash.....and wife will suck a big fat one...
Oh God. was that crass? that was wasn't it? sorry.
Comment by Wendi
If I was closer? I'd come babysit and send you to a day spa...
W
Comment by Lilla
From The Home Front
Enviro Warrior
Dream Herald
Esoteric Bookshop
Sorry to hear it... don't forget it's Autumn....
Take the kids to the art gallery, or museum of natural history [or wonders, or whatever], for the day... sounds like just the tonic to stimulate the synapsis back to life... especially sons?
Hope you all feel better soon.
Lilla ...
Comment by Mrs M
Mum's Word
Love & stuff
Mrs M
Comment by tessa marie b. santos
the cat with the fiddle
so i'd wish we get through this. but i'm reasonably certain we will.
Comment by Sandi
I feel much better after a work out at teh gym today. Aislinn is off at school with much whining of course, and Tony was very sweet to me after he saw I was serious and comforted me appropriately.
Tessa... welcome to Orble!!